bitch

sometimes, she is a real bitch.. she acts as if what has to be done is just impossible.. or she will be mulling over the thing for looooooonnggg time to render the effect useless.. she just fucks my happiness bcos of her attitude which is very sickening to say the least.. i despise her a lot bcos of it, and fear how abusive i might become after we start living together.. i just fail to understand her at these moments.. i dun understand at all as to her mindset which has to think all the negative things b4 doin a positive thing.. a thing as simple as wishin papa on b'day or talkin to his brother.. his own brother.. ohh.. she will then start cryin when i say somethin.. and yeah, i admit that i am caustic enuf in tht case.. but i also can't help.. she just knows sometimes as to how to sap the hapiness out of some good moments and turn it into a useless pondering, resulting in a fight/ tussle/ tension..